Day 18

Reading:
Nehemiah chapter 1-2, spurred on by the verses that kept coming to mind all day from Nehemiah 8:10, "Do not grieve, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." and Nehemiah 6:9, "But I prayed, now strengthen my hands."

Chapter 1- Nehemiah (great name by the way, that means "God's compassion") wept over Jerusalem, he fasted and prayed over the condition of the fallen city. V. 9 remembered the promises of God. V. 11, prayed that God be attentive to the prayer of His servant who delights in revering His Name. Asked for success and favor from the King. (King of the land)
Chapter 2- The King noticed his sadness and even though Nehemiah was afraid he told the King about wanting to go to Jerusalem. Verse 7, he made plans to go and men with with him. V. 12, didn't share too quickly what God planted in his heart about rebuilding the walls of Jerusalem. V. 17, he shared with them and then everyone began the good work.

We always loved the book of Nehemiah and the meaning of the name, which is why we named our son Nehemiah. When we came home from Vietnam a local Vietnamese pastor prayed for Nehemiah and he said, "May Nehemiah live up to his namesake and rebuild the walls of Vietnam as Nehemiah rebuilt the walls of Jerusalem." Talk about tears!!! Such a precious memory.

Menu:
Pear and o.j.
Coconut Larabar
Sweet potato w/ stir fry and rice
Cherry smoothie
P.B. and Triscuits
Pasta salad

High/Low:
- A super salty soy sauce lunch. Without sugars in my life, I can tell I have enjoyed salty more.
- Most of my food intake is before 3pm (a lot between 8-12pm, like 4 times). I will eat a mini snack about 5ish, but I am so hungry throughout the morning. My low is that I feel bad not eating big meals with family because I just cannot stuff it in. It makes me feel stuffed and frankly, anxious. Its an area to work on...

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Day 17

Reading:
I had a question posed to me by a fellow participant in the Daniel Fast. She asked, "How is God leading you to the scriptures you are reading?" Thought about this question throughout the day... specifically the "how" part.

I think (more like I know) that I have to have God's Word in me daily to live in victory. I don't have to read the Bible, I want too. It is the only thing that keeps my head sane, my actions appropriate, my words gentle and keeps me focused on Christ instead of sin.
Every morning when I wake up, that is my first priority. I go to my closet. I pray outloud or on my face or on my knees or I write in my prayer journal. I want that intimate time with Him and He will never deny His children when they come to Him. On that note...
Every morning might not be THE BEST quiet time you have ever had, ever! Some day's you may read without thinking you got anything, but other days it is so meaty. Sometimes I want meat and cannot find it, sometimes I want to rush, but God is showing me something huge.

I have one book at a time that I read through and always come back to that when I don't know what my heart wants to read. I may want to read about Jesus' miracles one day, then about the fruit of the spirit the next day, I may need to go to the empowering verses of Romans 8 to conquer the day ahead or cry out to God along with the Psalms. Every day is different for me and I love the ebb and flow of God. I have tried many times to read through the bible in a year and it just does not work for me. Too ridged and structured. My personality is ridged and structured and I need my time with God, to be free and led by God, whatever He pops up into my heart. He is ALWAYS there to direct me into His Word.

Today when I woke up, I only heard one word: Josiah. So, I looked up all the verses about him. Here is what I learned.
Matt 1:11- Josiah is in the genealogy of Jesus Christ.
Prophetic word in 1 Kings 13:2, "A son named Josiah will be born to the house of David. On you (the alter) he will sacrifice the priests of high places (those worshiping idols)..."
Love what is recorded about him in 2 kings 22:2, "He did what was right in the eyes of the Lord and walked in all the ways of his father David, not turning aside to the right or to the left."
Then chapter 23- JOSIAH CLEANS HOUSE! (Removing evil in the name of the Lord)
- Removed and burned articles made for Baal and Asherah
- Did away with pagan priests
- Tore down quarters of the male shrine prostitutes
- Broke the shrines at the gates
- Desecrated the alter to Molech so no one could sacrifice their children
- Demolished, cut down, burned, smashed, defiled all things that were against the Lord
- Rid of mediums, spiritists, household gods and all other idols in the whole town

23:25, "Neither before nor after Josiah was there a king like him tho turned to the Lord as he did- with all his soul and with all this strength..."

Menu:
Oat cereal w/ walnuts and banana
Grape juice and 1/2 date muffin
Avocado, Rotel, black beans/rice w/ chips
Pear with peanut butter (together, yum!)
Noodles w/ broccoli in tomato sauce

High/Low:
- Today, EVERYTHING tasted good. My husband and I were talking the other day how neither of us wanted to eat anything the last few days. I didn't eat dinner one night because it was like I felt sick that I couldn't have something fattening, so my stomach went on strike. BUT today, everything I ate was like manna from heaven. Full of flavor, very satisfying and a gift from Him!
- Got a little too excited putting our Easter menu together. We are hosting a family lunch and that is when we are breaking our 21 day fast. Don't want to zoom by the good work that God is doing just to focus on eating "real" food in a few days.

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Day 16

Reading:
Romans 2
Verse 16, "This will take place on the day when God will judge men's secrets through Jesus Christ, as my gospel declares."
Verse 29, "No, a man is a Jew if he is one inwardly; and circumcision is circumcision of the heart, by the Spirit, not by the written code. Such a man's praise is not from men, but from God."

Menu:
Apple w/ p.b.
Orange, banana, pineapple smoothie
Date muffin
Black beans and rice w/ veggies
Chips, hummus and hot sauce
Grapes
Tomato wrap w/ sauce

High/Low:
-Choosing to feel energetic with strength from God instead of energy from food.
-Wanting to go to the store for new foods, but we have food here. It forced me to go through and see what we have and what I can fix.

A NOTE TO ERIN...
Thank for leaving a comment! I cannot figure out your blog or email or contact for you. I know you left a VN question once as well. Could you please leave your info... Thank you! ALSO I wish I was eating Vegan. Vegan's can have all the sugar they want. I ended up not being able to use many of those recipes because of the sugars, but other than that- yes it is close. I will check out those sites.

Day 15

Reading:
1 Peter 3:3-6, "Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight. For this is the way the holy women of the past who put their hope in God used to make themselves beautiful. They were submissive to their own husbands, like Sarah, who obeyed Abraham and called him her master. You are her daughters if you do what is right and do not give way to fear." Amen.

John 5:22, Didn't know Jesus was the final judge in Revelation, "Moreover, the Father judges no one, but has entrusted all judgment to the Son." (Rev 20)

1 Samuel 16:7, "The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."

Menu:
Oatmeal w/ raisins
Lemon Larabar
Beans w/ corn chips (baked) and hot sauce
Date and Banana Muffins w/ raspberry puree
Tomato Pizza

High/Low:
- Having fun in the kitchen again baking Date Muffins
- Realizing how much comfort food really brings me, getting to that place each day saying things like- "Lord, You comfort me more than food. OR You, Jesus, sustain me more than bread."

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Day 14

Reading:
Phil 4:4-9, "Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me— PUT IT INTO PRACTICE. And the God of peace will be with you."

Today was a "put it into practice" kind of day. It was hard spiritually and foodwise. What did I learn?
-There are moments when you feel like you are being stretched like a rubber band. Stretching it to its limits yet not breaking, but you can be used to the fullest in this way.
-If I was confident all the time and never anxious, I would not fully rely on Him. I have to be weak so I can be strong in Him. Or rather, let His strength burst forth in me. (2 Corin 12:10, "That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.")
-Don't want people to see the outside anyway, appearances are deceiving, see the dependence on God. Isn't that what I like to see in others? His light shining through them, nothing of their own merit but relying on His strength.
-The voice of the enemy is on repeat. He always uses deception and lies. Must only listen to the voice of my Shepherd and take captive every thought. (2 Corin 10:5, "We demolish arguments and every pretension that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every thought to make it obedient to Christ.")

Menu:
Fruit smoothie
Avocado Tomato wrap w/ chips
Carrot muffin w/ p.b.
Apple w/ p.b.
Cereal w/ walnuts, dates and raisins w/ almond milk
Smoothie King

High/Low:
-Feeling great about packing a lunch today to head to OKC for an adoption party.
-Having to eat that lunch when they provided free donuts, pizza and pop for everyone at the party. I actually went to the car and shed a tear. I wanted pizza so bad. But God knows my heart and we are doing this fast to get closer to Him. (Heb 11:6, "And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists and that He rewards those who earnestly seek Him.")

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Day 13

Reading:
Luke 11- Jesus teaching us how to pray. Verse 9-10, Ask and receive, Seek and find, Knock and it will be opened to you. 13- Child asks for egg would give them a scorpion? How much more does your Father in Heaven know how to give you good gifts. Never noticed verse 19 before, " Now if i drive our demons by Beelzebub, by whom do your followers drive them out?" ouch- go JC! Also never noted how Jonah was a foreshadowing of Jesus. Three days then brought good news of repentance and a way to God. 46- the Pharisees were "clean" on the outside but really wicked on the inside. They loaded people down with burdens of the law yet they should have shared as teachers.

Titus
1:16- They claimed to know God but denied them with their actions.
2:5- Women be self-controlled, pure, busy at home, kind, subject to husbands and follow the Word of God 2:10- fully trust as to in every way make the teaching of God our savior attractive. 2:11- "For the grace of God that brings salvation has appeared to all men. It teaches us to say 'No' to ungodliness and worldly passions and to live self-controlled, upright and godly lives."
3:3-6, "At one time we too were foolish, disobedient, deceived and enslaved by all kinds of passions and pleasures. We lived in malice and envy, being hated and hating one another. But when the kindness and love of God our Savior appeared, He saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of His mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit, whom He poured out on us generously through Jesus Christ our Savior."

Menu:
Carrot muffin w/ almond butter and kiwi
Hummus w/ Triscuits
Avocado & tomato Cajun wrap
Three pepper salad (WOW)
Apple w/ p.b.
Whole wheat pasta w/ tomato sauce

High/Low:
- Looking forward to sharing the Three Pepper Salad recipe- it was soooo good.
- Waiting too long to eat lunch and totally crashing with irritation. I guess it was a blood sugar dip or something. Even though I am fasting, I do need to eat every 3 hours on this deal. Trust me, the fast is still working, I go to God constantly with, "I love you more than this sausage patty," (as was the case today) or "You satisfy me more than raw cookie dough right now."

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Day 12

Reading:
Jeremiah 37- Jeremiah thrown into a dungeon. The king comes to him to ask if he has heard a word from the Lord. He also begged the king to release him to the courtyard so he would live and survived the imprisonment.

Jeremiah 38- God sent a guy named Ebed-Melech to save Jeremiah from a muddy cistern. He continued to deliver the Word of the Lord even when it wasn't what people wanted to hear. Sounds like our present day...

Psalm 12- Verse 6, "And the Words of the Lord are flawless, like silver refined in a furnace of clay, purified seven times."

Proverb 12- Good stuff about the consequences of the wicked and protection of the righteous. The righteous flourish, he escapes trouble, overlooks an insult and is truthful. Verse 28, "In the way of righteousness there is life." This can be compared with John 20:31, "Believe that Jesus is the Christ, the Son of God, and that by believing you may have life in His Name." Amen.

Meal:
Homemade Carrot Oat Muffins w/Raspberry puree
Avocado w/ sesame chips
Bean and lettuce wrap w/ hot sauce
Orange Strawberry Pineapple fruit smoothie
Carrot muffin w/ almond butter
Cajun sweet potato fries

High/Low:
-The muffins I made were amazing! Eating something breadish was great.
-I can only wake up so early (6am daily) but my daughter is so early to rise that she always comes in during my quiet time with God. I love her and want to teach her and let her have her own quiet time, but this morning she must have had coffee on the way to my closet (where I read) and I was more irritated than focused.

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Day 11

Reading:
Community Bible Study on Rev ch. 20.
Wed night bible study with our small group talking about lifestories.
(Yes, the only bible studies I attend and they are both on Wed's! Ahhh)

We posted the following verse on the fridge in January, I have read it everyday for almost 3 months now and today saw a new word in the verse. How is that possible?!

"Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up;
do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the desert
and streams in the wasteland."
Isaiah 43:18-19

The word I had read over and over but just now noticed was the word "NOW". I felt in my spirit that "NOW" it springs up. That was a little precious anchor in my heart.

Menu:
Apple w/ p.b.
Orange and pineapple smoothie
Black bean and avocado wrap
Cherry Larabar
Triscruts and hummus
Veggie soup

High/Low:
-The hummus I made did not look good, but wow it tasted pretty good and was extremely filling! I was not hungry for over 3 hours.
-No one wants to hear a thin person talk about weight loss, I do not want to lose any more weight, but being on this type of fast it is bound to happen. So my low is looking too thin.

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Day 10

Reading:
Meditating on the thought- Your sin nature vs. Christs Spirit inside you. How they are at war and we have to continually give ourselves over to Him.

Isaiah 2:3, "Come, let us go up to the mountain of the LORD, to the house of the God of Jacob. He will teach us His ways, so that we may walk in His paths."

Isaiah 11- Verse 5, "Righteousness will be His belt and faithfulness the sash around His waist." I also love a good descriptive sentence and thought verse 9 was beautiful, "For the earth will be full of the knowledge of the Lord as the waters cover the sea."

Thought- I do not have to be perfect. Struggling is normal and God loves my dependence on Him. Also the scripture 1 Peter 5:9 came to mind, "Resist the devil, standing firm in the faith, because you know that your brothers throughout the world are undergoing the same kind of sufferings."

Menu:
Banana and almond butter w/ cranberry juice
Grapes
Bean dip w/ chips and guac and cucumber
Cinnamon Larabar
Black bean burger w/ couscous

High's:
-My hubby started his Daniel Fast today so it is a bit easier to eat together and talk about food.
-The word I got from the Lord this morning was to trust Him like my kids trust me.

Low's:
-Really hit a wall with so many snackie foods and not any real hot downhome cooked meals.
-First thought this morning was, this is the longest 10 days ever (and it's out of 21!) Press ON!

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Day 9

Reading:
Rev 20 and answered questions about the text in depth. Love that in v. 3 Satan is thrown into the abyss, locked and sealed inside - why?... to keep him from deceiving the nations.

Parable of the talents- Matthew 25:14-28. There are times in life when we are given much, and much is required. But I am noticing that there are also times when we are handed little and have to work really hard at just handling that. Once that is in order, God starts to multiply what He gives us.

Menu:
Orange
Apple w/ p.b.
Sauteed potatoes
Pickles and cranberry juice
Bean buritto w/ guac

High/Low:
-God's peace
-Missing chicken today

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Day 8

Reading:
Acts Chapters 1-3. Wow are those jam packed with goodness! 1:8, you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you. 1:24, prayed for direction knowing that the Lord knows everyone's heart.
2:25-28, you will fill me with joy in Your presence. 2:38, repent, be baptized and receive the promise of the Holy Spirit. 2:42, devoted themselves to teachings, fellowship and prayer.
3:6, "Silver or gold I do not have, but what I have I give you. In the Name of Jesus Christ, 'walk'." 3:16, by faith in the Name of Jesus this man was made strong, it is in Jesus' Name and the faith that comes through Him that have given him complete healing.

Psalm 119:11, said as a prayer...
Hide Your Word in my heart that I might not sin against You.

Menu:
Strawberries, apple w/ peanut butter and o.j.
Guac and chips
Brown rice and veggie stir fry
Smoothie King

High/Low:
- I'm on repeat here, but my mind clarity when I read is superb
- Going to have to forgo as much free reading to play catch-up with my bible study on Revelation

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Day 7

Reading:
Luke 21- Widow was giving out of her poverty. Verse 8, watch out that you are not deceived. V 14, make up your mind beforehand how you will handle yourself. Verse 15, love, "For I will give you words and wisdom that none of your adversaries will be able to resist." 33, His Words will never pass away. 34, do not let your heart be weighed down.

Prov 5 and 6- 5:3, Stay away from adultery. 15, drink from your own cistern, run water from your own well. Verse 21, "For a man's ways are in full view of the Lord and He examines all his paths."
6:3 Keep yourself humble with your neighbors. 8 Wisdom stores its provision in summer and gathers its food at harvest. 26, great simile, for the prostitute reduces you to a loaf of bread, no one who touches adultery will go unpunished. 32, a man/woman who commits adultery lacks judgement, whoever does so destroys himself.

Menu:
Fruit smoothie
Banana w/ Peanut Butter
Ginger Larabar
Guacamole w/ chips
Pear
Veggie "chili"

High/Low
-Homemade guacamole w/ chips was to die for! I was praising the Lord for a good meal.
-My mind has energy too and I cannot fall asleep easily. And I still wake up early.

Day 6

Reading:
Psalm 51- So good! Verse 10, Create in me a pure heart O God and renew a steadfast spirit within me. 12- Restore to me the joy of Your salvation. 14- You are the God who saves. 16- You do not delight in sacrifice or I would bring it... the sacrifices of God are a broken spirit.

Rev 20- Martyrs reign with God for 1,000 years then Satan comes yet again with deception to gather his army, but God sends them to the lake of burning sulfur and this begins the day of judgement and looking into the Book of Life.

James 1- Verse 2, you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance and it must finish it's work so you will be mature and complete. 20- For man's anger does not bring about the righteousness of God. 25- Look intently into the law of freedom. Look after orphans and widows and keep oneself from being polluted by the world. Amen.

Menu:
Apple w/ P.B. (#1 filler thus far)
Grapes
Two bean corn wrap w/ rice
Cherry Larabar
Cashews and orange juice
Hash browns and carrots

High/Low:
-Having great energy.
-Hitting a 5:30pm total food crash. Almost cried trying to cook dinner. Needed to eat and couldn't figure out what to have and trying to serve family other foods was hard.

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Day 5

Reading:
Ephesians 6- The Armor of God. How to be strong- Verse 10, "Finally, be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power." 11- Taking a stand against the devils schemes.

Amos 6- Haughty attitudes got them in trouble. And in the end they still said in verse 13, "Did we not take this by our own strength?" Uh, no, you didn't and either can I.

Proverbs 31- All good! 25, laugh at the days to come.

Matthew 4- After fasting for 40 days Jesus was tempted by satan. He always answered with the Word of God. Then He started His ministry on earth after this trial. Verse 4, "Man does not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God." Verse 10, "Away from me, Satan!"

Menu:
Banana w/ almond butter and grape juice
Coconut Larabar and pineapple
Corn tortilla w/ two bean rotel on wheat rice
Peanut butter & oatmeal "cookies"
Orange Smoothie
Okra and sesame sticks

High/Low:
-Being creative in the kitchen with what you can eat is fun.
-Starving today. Needed to pray through it instead of being irritable.

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Day 4

Reading:
2 Corinthians Ch 9 and 10- 9:8- God is able... All... go read it. Verse 10- Now HE who supplies seed and bread will increase and enlarge a harvest of righteousness. 15- God is the first gift giver. 10:4-5, using our weapons that really work, 13- not comparing to others.

Jeremiah 36- Verse 9- the whole town fasted, that is amazing.

Psalm 4- All good. 7, "You have filled my heart with greater joy." Verse 8, "I will lie down and sleep in peace, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety."

Prov 4- Verse 5- Get wisdom, do not forget My Words or swerve from them. Again wisdom protects us, watches over us. 13, "Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life." 18- 27, Warnings to keep, guard, put away, look straight, fix, make level, not swerve, all reminds me of Fix our eyes on Jesus, the author and perfecter of our faith from Heb 12:2.

Menu:
Banana w/ peanut butter w/ grape juice
Pecan Larabar
Avocado & tomato Cajun wrap
Pineapple and walnuts snack
Amazing Orange smoothie! (minus the sugar)
Black Bean & Rotel mix w/ sesame sticks

High/Low:
-Seeing strength come and swoop in at the last second and provide for me.
-Watching my hubby eat Ramen. The salty, chickeny broth with noodles actually made my mouth water. BUT again, the reason for the fast is that God satisfies me SO much more than Ramen ever could. Does Ramen save me, help me, correct me, love me, care and comfort me and listen to my prayers?

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Day 3

Reading:
Philippians Ch 1 and 2- ALL Good! Especially love 1:12 & 19. Two fold... What happened to Paul served to advance the gospel and what happened to him will turn out for deliverance. Ch 2:9, Jesus has the Name above every other name.

Psalm 3- LOVE (the Michael Gunger song of this Psalm)
Verse 7-8, "Arise, O Lord! Deliver me, O my God! Strike all my enemies on the jaw; break the teeth of the wicked. From the Lord comes deliverance. May your blessing be on your people."

Prov 3- Verse 6, In ALL your ways acknowledge Him and He WILL make your path straight. V. 12- Seek Wisdom! All her paths are peace. Verse 26- "For the Lord will be your confidence."

Menu:
Banana strawberry smoothie w/ rice milk
Peanut butter stirred into grain "cookie"
Avocado and tomato Cajun wrap
Apple sauce oatmeal
O.J. and sesame chips
Couscous (w/ veggie broth instead of water- so good!)
Carrot and pea salad

High/Low:
Enjoying food tastes in a new way.
That means my low is not covering everything in Ranch. I miss you.

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Day 2

Reading:
2 Corinthians 4- ALL good! 6- "For God, who said, 'let light shine out of darkness," made His light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ." That is a lot to chew on, but oh so beautiful. He always shines His light into darkness.

Jeremiah 35- God told the story of the Recabite family. How they honored their forefathers yet how Israel could not even honor God though He spoke, sent servants and prophets. The Racab family would never fail to serve God.

Psalm 2- 2- Kings and rulers gather together against the Lord, But God says in verse 6 that He has installed His King and gives warning in verse 10-11 to serve Him and in 12, blessed are those who take refuge in Him.

Prov 2- LOTS of action words... store up, turn and apply our hearts, call out for insight, cry aloud, look and search for God and we will understand the fear of the Lord and find knowledge. 7-12 states that He holds victory for us and gives us wisdom that will save us from the wicked one.

Phil 2:12-13, "Continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you to will and to act according to His good purpose."

Menu:
Apple with almond butter w/ o.j.
Avocado and black bean wrap
Salad w/ sesame chips
Lime Larabar
10 grain "cereal" with 1/2 banana and almond milk
Mini-black bean wrap with soy sauce
All natural Raspberry fruit spread on a spoon for dessert

High/Low:
- The clarity of my mind is amazing, no sugar fog!
- Heartburn again and will have a fruit shake tomorrow, needed that pick-me-up today

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Day 1

For the next 21 days (now- Easter) I will be recording the progress of my Daniel Fast. I thought about sharing or not sharing for a bit and asked my hubby about it. I want to say that these posts are not to be haughty in any way, yet to share my experience through a spiritual fast.
To sum up, the Daniel Fast is a 3 week spiritual fast or spiritual exercise, if you will, following the Biblical example of the prophet Daniel's journey with fasting. Over the course of 3 weeks you fast from certain foods in order to bring strength to your spirit and increase your devotion to God. The naughty things are all meats, breads, dairy and sweets. Daniel fasted from these items for the following reasons: to draw closer to God, to stay pure, to seek the Lord for wisdom, direction and answers to prayer.
Basically you can have fruits, veggies, beans, nuts and bread without yeast/sugar. And when you realllly want it, you pray. Letting the Lord sustain you instead of the food.

Our spirit is fed on the Word of God, so I will be sharing what I read, the menu for the day and how I generally felt physically- high/low (as in the game).

Reading:
Jeremiah 34- In verses 1-3, it is all God's warnings. City will come to ruin, burned and you will not escape. BUT in verse 4 it says, "Yet hear the promise of the Lord." Listening to the promises and not focusing on the disaster.

Psalm 1- Verse 6, "For the Lord watches over the way of the righteous." I am always reminded here that the words Righteous and Christ are interchangeable. Try it anywhere in the Word, its cool. He watches over those in Christ.

Prov 1- ALL good! Verses 7- fearing the Lord, 10- do not give into sin, 23- respond to rebuke and God will pour out His heart and share His thoughts with you, 29- choose to fear the Lord, 33- "But whoever listens to Me will live in safety and be at ease, without fear of harm."

Genesis 3- In verse 13 the serpents methods are always the same... deception. He deceived Eve, she believed it and ate the fruit. Same Same. I want to recognize this easier.

Menu:
Strawberry and almond shake
Apple with peanut butter
Salad with sauteed potatoes
Cinnamon Larabar (OMW- amazing!)
Veggie lasagna

High/Low
- SO MUCH ENERGY today. Truly amazing!
- Had heartburn all day, yuck, new food choices I guess.

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Getaway

A little summery of our weekend... We had a couples getaway in Branson!

We were thrilled to be invited by a girlfriend whose parents have a timeshare at a condo near Big Cedar Lodge. One of the best parts was that I did not have to plan a single part of the trip (very uncharacteristic of me)! We divided the room rate, the food and gas. We enjoyed our time with the Morris', Butters, Bellots, Wagners and Henslees. They are all amazing couples and we loved our fellowship time with them!!!

We have not had a couples getaway in years and its been over a year since we were without the kids. Everyone's kiddos stayed with family or friends for the weekend and boy does it feel weird to be kidless... for the first couple hours anyway, then its pure heaven. No bottom's to wipe, food to cut, tiff's to break apart and oh, silence is golden.

Here are the two beautiful women who planned and prepared our weekend.
The view from our balcony at sunset. Can't you just feel the peace?
My honey.

Our room. King bed, five spray shower, beautiful view, we surly felt spoiled rotten.

Everyone delighted in playing pool and boardgames and they had a theatre room. The girls watched The Proposal one night and the guys watched Gladiator the next.

The boys playing poker. Did not hear who won this game, well say it was Adam. : )

My favorite place of the house. The Grand Kitchen. There was a full table, breakfast nook and stools at the bar. Everyone enjoyed cooking and eating meals together. And seriously the meals were as grand as the kitchen: Cajun shrimp boil, homestyle breakfasts, steak, turkey and every delicious dessert you can imagine. (Excuse me while I take a blogbreak for some chocolate torte I took home, typing about the dessert was just too much.)

Often the men and women would veer off into groups. It was fun to talk uninterrupted about girly things: marriage, child discipline, God stories and more! I asked Adam what they talked about: "you know, guy stuff." Ha.

The Bellots shrimp boil. As I mentioned before, everyone came with divine food plans that catered to our "educated palates". That is a new phrase I learned this weekend. Along with the true meaning of "big top". Think- large shirt, not circus, along with boardgame confusion.

Our double cooking night in the kitchen. Adam and Michael worked so hard making dinner. Insert whistle- wheewt whhooo!

We played the high-low game driving home. (The way there was couples, the way home was girls/guys.) We had sooo many more highs and maybe one low each, so that shows it was a blessed trip. Everyone stayed up till about 2am each night. It was WILD for me to do such a thing, but it was worth it. We do all agree that our bodies, both from overeating and lack of sleep, are paying for it, but I cannot think of a better way to mistreat ourselves- fun times with friends is a cherished gift from God indeed!

"When Jesus saw their faith, He said, 'Friend, your sins are forgiven.'"

NHP

Oregon Trail

Have you ever woke up one morning and thought, "Who is this person?" And I am NOT talking about a one night stand here, I am talking about... yourself!?
This has been me over the last few months. Going from the old self to the new self. After a season of extreme emotional turmoil and spiritual battles, I am beginning to see the light.
It is almost as if God said to me, "OK, my daughter, you are over there and I want you to be over here. So I am going to move you. It's going to be very painful. I am going to tear up some really deep roots, till the ground and plant many new things."
This came as a revelation after reading John 15. That Jesus is the true vine and God is my gardener. God will cut off every branch in me that bears no fruit. While those that do bear fruit, He will prune so they will be more fruitful. Do you see a trend here? Either way, cutting or pruning, not one part of you gets to just rest, its all being tended too. All... ouch!

What has come out of such intense unrest? A totally different person!
I still know my areas of struggle of course, but I needed to work on other areas as well. Specifically how I prioritize my time, family life, talents and more.

I know the Lord has been working in me to let go of some busyness. Basically the good ol' American standard of life. Just how He did this I am unable to share, but lets just say it was painful and scary and took me to my knees, literally.
When you get to a point that you cannot function, your God becomes really big. And even though I was close to God before, I had slipped in several places and I was on cruise control- meaning self reliance. Prune that away and you will be clinging to Jesus for dear life. Which, by the way, is apparently where He wants us to be.

Oh and something beautiful I have learned... Victory in self pales in comparison to His victory through us.
As I let Him accomplish in me that which I cannot and am incapable of doing, my heart is full of worship and praise to Him. Again, right where He wants us to be.

During this reworking of my mind- which I am still doing and should continue to do as long as I breathe air- came a lot of clarity about priorities.

Here are a few things that are going on in our house...

1. Background: I taught school full time and KNEW that I would teach while having kids. *But God told me in 2006 to obey and stay home. He peeled my fingers away from my job. I let go and have loved my season of stay-at-home-motherhood. Then came the time for my kids to start school. I KNEW that I was an advocate for public school. I KNEW that I would be homeroom mom and PTA volunteer, a light in the darkness and the like. *But God told me to obey in 2010 and homeschool. We have committed to do this in 2010-11 the four year old program, most likely Sonlight. We will take these school decisions one year at a time. SO MANY factors came into play with this decision.
Here are just a two: The older child coming into our home will NEED to be at home. Playing catch-up in many areas and the kiddos in my home are not ready to be out of the home all day (or even half the day, everyday).
Then there is the crazy run around. This is part of the busyness I was talking about. Always on the go, go, go. It just needs to stop. Part of our season right now is time. at. home. playing. and. being. a. family!

2. Planning at-home-time. Everyone plans things out, right? Dinner date, movies, mall, errands, vacations and such. BUT do we ever plan things at home? "Oh, what are you doing on Friday night Natasha?" Well thanks for asking, "We are staying at home to play in the backyard with the kids followed by a macaroni and cheese dinner!" Planning at-home family time on purpose is hardly ever seen in our culture. Play games, make dinner together and enjoying one another at home. It's sticking to the theory of God, spouse, kids, others... not the other way around.
I have also been thinking about taking a vacation this summer. At HOME. You know, no emails, calls, plans, errands... just hanging out with my most precious gifts and doing stuff around the house. What-a-shocker!

3. Focus on lining the "event" up with God and your family first. Ok, let me unpack this. We added up the time we spend as a family during the weekdays. It was 7 hours a week. We are out of the house for volleyball and small group two nights a week, so my hubby only sees the kids on those days for 30 mins. The other 3 days its exactly 2 hours. (Weekend time varies of course)
So if someone calls and wants to have coffee, have a girls night, do this or that, I need to think to myself, "Will I be spending more time with you this week than my OWN family?" And by the way, we are not a super busy family. We have learned to say no, a lot, but still, everyone is pulled in different directions and we have had to say NO this week more than ever (I know we were tested) because we said to ourselves that we will not let anything come between our 7 hours a week of family time. Period. I am not saying we are sacrificing strong family and friendship ties, I am not, this will only make those connections stronger because our time with others will be valued instead of rushed.

4. Like the rest of the world, I love to save money. I love sales, but when it came to couponing and food budgeting, that just didn't seem to apply. February was the first month that this strong intense desire to use coupons just came over me. And made time to make it a priority. I got on line, called trusted friends and am learning to save money, on purpose. And it has worked! We save over $35 dollars this month in groceries.

5. Gardening. I set this as one of my New Year's resolutions and it is on its way. I have the plans drawn out, the size of boards needed, a dirt guy lined up, a highlighted list of veggies and fruits that we will be planting and I CANNOT wait! I feel overjoyed that God would call me to plant a garden. Especially during this time where I am clearly being worked on by my Gardener!
I would rather be in the dirt with my kids than on, let's say, Facebook. I am pro-internet communities of course, I mean I am writing this on a BLOG, but I am not sure this is always the case for many people in our society today. It has convicted me and I choose to be like a woman on the Oregon Trail. Yes, that is my goal. Totally dependant on God for my daily bread, my livelihood, educating my kids, working the land, stopping the unnecessary busyness that leads me personally and our family into a downward spiral.


6. Bringing the TTT. Our pastor did a series over the holidays that talked about what we could bring to the Lord for Christmas. It was three T's. Bringing our Talent, Time and Treasure. I think this is well said because all important things to me seem to fall under these categories. God has obviously been working on some time and treasure issues with me. And now its on with the talent.
My sweetest friend said to me one day, "I know why you have these "issues", you need them to keep you humble, because you can do everything." I am not saying this to brag. Unlike my hubby who exudes the fruit of the spirit (love, joy, peace, patience, goodness, kindness, gentleness, faithfulness and self-control) I stumble on these daily, but my talents overflow. I do not know why I can paint, cut hair, adopt, write, organize, teach, cook or do anything else. Trust me, the list of "can't do's" that is thrown in my face daily far exceeds this list. BUT I am focusing on gifts that are from Him. You have many too! What am I DOING with these talents?? If I am too BUSY I know I will not use them. Slow down, unplug and create for Him and for others. In using my gifts I am serving Him. To me it is a form of worship.

7. Be empowered. All the things I do, whether at home or on the go, I must be empowered. "I" just cannot do it because it leads me to those unwanted issues. I have to stay empowered by the Holy Spirit.

Psalm 138

Off to watch my husband hunt game, collect wood to float my covered wagon across a river and pray we are not stricken with dysentery.
NHP
P.S. Here is my hubby's trip to Haiti!
P.S.S. If you made it through this entire blog post- gold star for you!